The Final Trimester

The Journey Continues... Writing

These comics almost summarize my situation at the moment. Panic button?

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Dusty

Berhabuk.

Uiish.. lamanya ndak update ini blog. More than 2 years, youuu!

Nayli pun sudah 2 tahun lebih. My coti-coti pun sudah hampir ke penghujung. Banyak perkara berlaku sepanjang 2++ tahun ini. But, mostly pasal my study lah. Ini lah ni kalau mama-mama yang sambung belajar. Nantilah, kalau ada masa, saya update di sini ya blog. Kesiaaaan kau berhabuk. Tebal betul habuknya.

But, in the mean time.. makcik happy betul. Sebab coding yang digoreng-goreng selama ini di laptop, kini boleh sudah run di workstation di lab, setelah proses install-uninstall VS berkali-kali. Jadi, makcik pun mau meninggalkan bookmark untuk install GLUT paling mudah di blog makcik yang ndak seberapa ini.. supaya lain kali senang sikit makcik mo cari tutorial ni.

This tutorial is the easiest way to insall GLUT library into your PC.


Thank you, Visual Ambition! I wonder, what are you doing now after the graduation...

Ok, last but not least..

Selamat Hari Raya!

New Addition, Nayli Sakinah!

It was heavier and heavier. 30th April, we went to Dr Eleen’s clinic for weekly check. I was 38th week pregnant. She announce that the baby will be quite big, 3.7kg at the moment. It’s scary to think about the option for C-section. I hope we can deliver the baby normally.

So, this is Nayli Sakinah (My achievement, peacefulness) Our latest addition in the family. Alhamdulillah, safely delivered on the 1st of May 2012 at 5.19 pm, 3.65kg. Thank you very much to Dr Felice and the team (nurses) at KK Specialist. They are highly recommended. REALLY!

Will do an entry on the details later. At the moment, yours truly is a stay-at-home-mom for 2 months. Missing the reading-writing-research activities, but enjoying every moment with this little angel.

Reminiscence

12 years ago..

1 week before deliver.. sempat lagi p jalan2 dengan BFF..

Seconds after birth..

First day..

Nurul 11 years old

My darling Nurul.. 12 years old..  Happy Birthday dear. Luv u always!

31 weeks

We are pregnant. Again! InsyaAllah, this will be the 4th junior in our family. Unplanned, as usual.

I tried to keep it to myself for the first trimester, but of course, going into 2nd trimester, the baby bump started to show. Although, most of my friends sure think that I put on weight instead. Only after the 3rd month, I went to get the tested and yes, 2 lines appeared. Mixed feeling –

• happy to have an additional to our family,
• anxious to juggle study, motherhood and pregnancy,
• shy – can’t explain why I should feel shy. Maybe because one of my senior relate pregnancy with ‘productivity’. Haha.

Alhamdulillah, I don’t have any serious problem in this pregnancy. Morning sickness tu biasalah, kan. But my appetite is increasing.  (Who doesn’t?) So does my weight lah.. :( Within 31 weeks, I have put on extra 10 kilos!

I went to Dr Eileen’s clinic of King Fisher for monthly checking. She is the best choice, female doctor,  to have around this area. Besides, she is also kind and informative. The clinic is not so busy, so cut the waiting time.

However the next question is where to have this baby. The last two was delivered at the SMC, but considering the crowd there.. I am thinking of having it in another hospital. Thinking of Dr Felice of KK Specialist. Most of my friends said, she is good but too busy.  Called the clinic (088-230 011) yesterday and I can only squeeze in on the 4th April. That is on week 35. Harap2 semua berjalan lancar.

After having my 3rd child 5 years ago, it is quite an experience to be pregnant in this age. Tua sudah bah. Student lagi tu. Luckily, I don’t have to go to attend lecture. Or to give lecture. But, reading the articles, journals etc with this condition, is really a challenge. Mengantuklah, sakit pingganglah, malaslah. You name it. But no excuse. The time is ticking. Next semester (which is next week) is my 2nd Semester. End of August, I need to defend my proposal. Scary.

Oklah, enough for now. Will be meeting my BFF tomorrow to catch some updates.

Wish me luck and remember me in your doa and prayers

Next entry : My shopping list.

The One That Got Away

At the moment, this song is in my list. Originally by Katy Perry, but this cover sounds more pleasant to my ear. Enjoy!

Katy says “Sometimes you promise someone forever but it doesn't work out that way.” But I hope I am still his girl, in another life. *Senyum malu2*

1st Progress Report

 

Allahumma yassir wa la tu’assir

Ya Allah: Make things easier for me and don’t make them difficult

Forgotten all about the progress report. For a full time student like me, submitting progress report to the sponsor is very crucial. It can cause the delay of allowance payment and other important issues that will haunt you in the future. Luckily, one of my friends asked me about the format of the progress report and which remind me that I don’t have any. Nah, sekarang baru kelangkabut menyiapkan the executive summary.  

Later, after  I have finished the report, I will post it here for future reference. Ok, now I need to get back to the writing. Hmmm.. where should I begin…

..conditions are important for optimal productivity.. yeah, right…

Ada apa dengan Awan Nano?

Esok makcik ada presentation. Kena present progress phd bersama-sama dengan rakan seperjuangan MCG yang lain. Gerun. Idea, ada. Cuma tengah berserakan macam awan nano. Mau dianyam dan disimpul jadi satu idea yang kukuh. By hook or by crook, petang ini slide presentation mesti disiapkan.  (Jadi apa makcik buat menyempat lagi mencoret di sini..?)

Berbalik pada Awan Nano. Memang dari dulu, makcik Misako rasa pelik apa kaitan nano technology dengan awan.

Begitulah awan nano Setia melindungi diri
Tika panas mencuba menggores pipi Dan bibirmu

Tapi bila baca liriknya, Misako rasa apa yang ingin disampaikan adalah cerita mengenai ‘pelindung’ seseorang. Ibu bapa melindungi anak-anaknya, suami isteri menjadi pelindung pasangannya, sahabat yang sentiasa take care of each other. Pelindung yang ikhlas tanpa mengharap balasan.

Lebih sayu lagi bila dihayati cerita dalam video clip Awan Nano si Hafiz dengan bapanya Herman Tino ini.

Pemenang AJL 26

Dan semalam, Ceryl pengacara AJL 26 menerangkan, mengikut menulis lirik En Buddiey maksud nano itu sebenarnya adalah dari bahasa/dialek orang Johor (Johorian, can you confirm this?) yang bermaksud berserakan.  So, Awan Nano dari segi bahasanya bermaksud awan yang berserakan dan dari segi maksud dalam lagu ini adalah awan pelindung ;).

Kasihku Kasih tiada banding setia tiada tara
Bagaimanapun jua Aku pelindung dirimu sayang
Walaupun tak akan tercapai jejarimu

Bagi Misako, my parents adalah my first Awan Nano. Eh, macam ada air pulak bergenang di mata Misako.. Now, of course my other half is my Awan Nano,  kan Lai? and hopefully Misako juga akan jadi Awan Nano to my lovely children. Sampai bila-bila. InsyaAllah.

Lihat ke arah sana, Serakan warna dan berarakan.. Awan
Pabila terik panas, Segera hadirnya memayungi diri
Pabila kau dahaga
Sesegera turun hujan melimpahkan kasihnya
Pabila kau katakan, Akulah awan itu yang kau mahu

Selamat Memilih : SBPA

Tinggal besok untuk memulangkan borang opsyen. Hari ni, Misako duduk di opis sambil pikir2 mana satu yang terbaik. My En Hubby sign for 60 tahun. Hari tu janji mo sign opsyen bersara pada umur sama.

Wah, 60 tahun? Ndak terbayang Misako pi kelas sambil pegang tongkat menggigil2 mo marah student sebab ndak hantar assignment, lambat masuk kelas etc. Hahahaha. Pun ndak sanggup tercongok di rumah sorang-sorang menunggu en Hubby balik dari kerja.

So, macam mana? Bila call pejabat pendaftar tadi, opsyen lama Misako adalah bersara pada umur 55 tahun. Ni mau tambah lagi 60 tahun. Jadi Misako pun google lah anggaran kiraan pencen. Yang Misako tau, kalau bersara selepas 25 tahun perkhidmatan jumlah pencen yang akan kita dapat adalah 50% dari gaji akhir. Kalau 30 tahun, akan dapat 60% insyaAllah. Kira punya kira.. Misako akan berkhidmat lebih kurang 30 tahun kalau ambil pencen 58.. tapi dalam borang opsyen tiada pulak kotak mau tanda 58 tahun. Jadiiii…. iya, setelah fikir masak2 (mangkali) Misako pun tandalah 60 tahun. Sehati sejiwa dengan en Hubby tersayang. Uhuk..uhuk.. batuk pulak.

Satu lagi, daripada maklumat kengkawan dan blog Anyss ini.. kita boleh bersara lebih awal dari tarikh opsyen yang kita pilih dan boleh dapat pencen terus. Let say, mula-mula kita pilih opsyen 60 tahun tapi tiba2 seronok pulak main-main dengan cucu (kalau panjang umur dan ada rezeki InsyaAllah) pada umur 56 tahun, maka kita boleh dapat pencen terus. Ndak payah tunggu sampai umur 60 tahun (kalau mengikut SSM).

Ooi.. panjang pulak entri kali ni. Oklah, Misako mau hantar borang sudah ni. Buat kawan-kawan yang lain, selamat memilih!

dan.. Selamat Tahun Baru 2012!

pic masa kawin my cousin.. ;p

Current Favourite Song

I loved you for a thousand years.. will love you for a thousand more..

Sedang ‘in love’ dengan lagu ni. Rasanya lagu ni adalah salah satu lagu dalam soundtrack filem Twilight yg teSelrakhir tu. Ndak ingat apa tajuk filem tu. Tapi dalam official video clip ada diselit sedikit trailer pasal filem Twilight.

Liriknya sungguh romantis. Berangan-angan sekejap, menghayati bait-bait lirik. Bah, salam Jumaat yang barakah sahabat semua. Malam ini ada dinner sempena Hari Wanita di Magellan.

Selamat berhujung minggu ya!

Jumaat yang Berkat

Assalamualaikum

Hari yang ceria bermula dengan mood yang ceria. Di sini, saya rasa saya lebih dihargai, bukan sahaja sebagai pelajar tetapi juga sebagai rakan. Pagi-pagi tadi terserempak dengan dekan sekolah (tempat saya belajar). Beliau menyapa seperti seorang sahabat lama. Bertanya khabar dan keperluan untuk melancarkan lagi proses menimba ilmu saya ini. Agak terkejut sebab jarang-jarang orang besar-besar sudi menyapa ikan bilis seperti saya ini.

Maka atas sebab itu, mood saya sangat baik hari ini. Sampai di lab, terus cari kertas-kertas jurnal yang sudah dicetak, tapi belum dibaca. Hari ini saya bertekad untuk menghabiskan sekurang-kurangnya satu review paper.

Ok, saya sambung dulu. Oh ya, selamat berhujung minggu!

Day 1: The Lab

This is the 4th week in Semester 1. Beginning to like my ‘lil corner in the Lab, the place i spent the most of my next 3 years (hope I can complete within time)of  study. I still remember 2 weeks before, it can automatically trigger a headache just by thinking about coming to the lab. Imagine, for a decade I have my own cosy room where everything I need in order  to be a fully functioning teacher were just within my reach. But now, knowing that I need to move to another place in order for me to really feel   that i am now a student, is making me quite anxious. The smell of the lab enough to put my mood off . Next of course the migraine la..

Alhamdulillah, it is better now. I can sit several hours reading and doing stuff as student used to do. Need to have this important momentum to sail this journey. Like one of my good friend said.. It’s about time for me to jump into the ocean. Now I am in the ocean, and in need to learn how to swim. But before that I need to know how to float. Or otherwise I will be drowning.  Please ya Allah, don’t let me drown. Please give me the strength.

Still learning how to float, and sometimes it makes me tired. It is endless. So many thing need to read, yet so many thing need to understand. Most of the jargons are still aliens to me.

Now I need to jot down all the important points from my reading into my journal before the meeting with Dr Supervisor tomorrow.

Signing off,

Yours truly

my new cubicle..

I am a Student!

At last! It took me more than 10 years to make another ‘giant’ step in my life. Why? There are so many reasons.

• Commitment – You name it. Work commitment, family commitment, etc.. etc..
• The ‘love’ – I love to involve in research that got to do with learning or e-learning. Until the final month before I submitted my proposal to a prospect supervisor, I found another love! Haha..
• Mr Supervisor – This is one of the most important criteria for you to consider. Of course we will never find a perfect Supervisor, but at least, this person should be the right one. The one who see you as a person, guide you through the journey, someone who knowledgeable to the field.
• Over-the-sea – The most important of all is, I am quite reluctant to move to another place, especially over-the-sea. I might be new interesting life, but being me.. I don’t think I can cope with all the changes. Especially with my 3 schooling kids and full-of-commitment-hubby. This is why I have to take a decade to decide.

Alhamdulillah, one of my prayers had been answered by the All Mighty. To be a mother, a wife and a student at my own home, I mean here at KK. Am praying hard and of course struggling to be on time with all the schedule and milestone set by me and Mr Supervisor (DrABB).

So, now I am a student. Once again ;). Hope this journey brings me a lot of nice memories. A journey not only to broaden the border of knowledge but also to find my stand in this academia world. InsyaAllah.

Ya Allah, sahaja aku menimba ilmu keranaMu. Permudahkanlah perjalananku dan rakan2ku dalam perjuangan kami mencari ilmuMu. Amiin.

*For my own reference

How to write a research proposal : http://researchproposalguide.com/

How To Write a (Thesis / Dissertation) Proposal : http://filebox.vt.edu/users/nussbaum/subpages/ProposalHowTo.pdf

Welcome Freshies!

It’s already 9th of Syawal. This morning when I arrived UMS, it was packed with traffics. This year, the excitement are quite different. Parents from all over Malaysia came to accompany their beloved son and daughter for the registration. I believe most of them has came to Sabah for their first time. They must be surprised to see our lovely campus and developed city when people from the other side of our country asked whether we Sabahan are still living on the tree. Even, one of my student’s mom  asked whether she can buy a pail here in KK.

My day continued with a delightful breakfast with my dear friend, but spoiled by my Danish when he throwing (all out) his tantrum. Request not to have nasi goreng with vegi, I picked and put all the vegi aside. Still he mengamuk. After some scene of persuading the bad mood boy, he began to calm down and finished the rice!

When I went back to the office, I accidentally bumped into a Wira. Seriously, I did not see the car although I look through the side and back mirror. Maybe because I am discussing with Danish about his tooth. Not until the driver honk me, only I realized there were a white car at the back of my car. But it was too late, I can hear the ‘kissing’ sound of the two cars. I parked somewhere and went to see his car. So malas to argue, I say sorry and offered him RM100. It’s only a small dent near the right wheel. I took his phone number, I don’t know what for. I asked him whether he is a student.. he was mad at me. After I paid the duit raya, he apologies for raising his voice.

Hmmm.. what an event to start my day. Still not in a good mood now. So, I told this to you my dear blog hoping it will ease my misery feeling.

For those freshmen, welcome to the real academic challenge. Welcome to the border of your childhood and as a young adult. Enjoy the experience. All the best!

Happy Eidul Fitri!

Macam di KK

17th Ramadhan. Alhamdulillah. May Allah give us strength and blessing to appreciate this holy month with more ibadah.

This morning, I reached office earlier than usual. One of the reason is because sending my dearest Nurul to the school then straight to the office. 6.24 am, yup that is waaay to early .

First thing to do is to check the email. Nope, nothing important today. That’s good, so I can continue my reading that have been put to a long pause since last meeting with the supervisor. Bad, bad Misako!

Then I checked my FB (who doesn’t, kan?). My brother send this video to our family group. Macam di KK. It is a famous phrases in Sabah like, “OK bah kalau kau”, “aramaitiii” and so on. Macam di KK is referring to a happening place for entertainment. There is also one funny joke about this phrase told by Mr Hubby. I think most of the guys know the joke. However, congratulation to Janrywine J Lusin for the interesting performance. Bah enjoy, macam di KK oooh!

Matchiam di KK.. adaa di KK.. Aramaitii..

Satu Doa Untukmu - A Prayer For You

Thank you sis. This beautiful poem I pinjam dari The Mind Tripper’s Blog.

Buat Suamiku.. MEA

Selalu dalam simpuh

(as i bowed after prostration)

Selepas salam disampaikan

(after bidding my salaam upon the angels..)

Diantara begitu banyak permintaan saya,

(amongst du'aas poured for Him)

Sentiasa ada kamu..

(there is always about you)

Semoga keselamatan selalu melapisi letupan semangat yang hangat berpijar

(may Allah always protect you within your brave spirit)

Semoga basuhan air menyejukkan kebaikan hati yang siap menerangi dunia

(may Allah lights your heart to torch others)

Semoga keluarga dan orang-orang pilihan kamu selalu berada dekat dengan kamu

(may Allah keeps you surrounded by your beloved family and mates)

Semoga Tuhan menyayangi kamu, yang sudah menghadiahkan ketenangan pada saya

(may Allah shower you with all His love, as peace embraced my heart upon your presence)

Tapi diatas semuanya saya berdoa,

(but above all,i ask from Allah)

Semoga kamu hidup sebagai lelaki yang bahagia

(that you will be the happiest man)

Terkadang terselip satu penutup yang malu terucap

(but as a women im shy to ask)

Keinginan untuk mendampingi

(my desire to always be with you)

Keinginan untuk juga berbagi

(my desire to company you in happy or sad)

Biar Dia yang sampaikan

(i will let Him tell you)

Biar Dia yang lantunkan

(and i let Him whisper my wish for you)

Biar Dia yang lafazkan senandung rindu tanpa henti yang mengiringi langkah saya sepanjang hari

(may He inspire your heart towards me, in each steps of my journey of life everyday)

Menitipkan separuh kasih sayang pada Sahabat yang Maha Kuasa,

(being friend of Khalilullah (you))

Sudah jadi anugerah yang luar biasa

(is the best gift ever)

Menitipkan kamu pada Nya, adalah ungkapan kasih terbesar

(leaving you in His hand, is infinite expression of love)

Mendoakan kamu agar selalu dalam penjagaan Nya, adalah bentuk cinta termegah

(asking Him to take a very good care of you, is unexplain, purest form of love)

Memohon kesihatan kamu selalu dilindungi Nya, adalah rasa sayang paling lembut

(praying for your 'aafiah, is the most tender care i've ever gave to a man)

saya tiada punya apa-apa untuk ditawarkan

(and i have nothing to offer you, my dear..)

hanya itu saja..hanya itu saja..

(that is all..that is all..)

Semoga sentiasa dirahmati Allah, lai.

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Yours,

yan

Tunggul II

It has been two days, Danish complaining about one of his teeth. At first I thought it was just a trick so that he can buka puasa. But when I checked, the geraham ada lubang besar. So, yesterday we went to the dentist. He is the one who keep asking me to bring me to the dentist.  Browsed through my list of dentists’ clinic around KK, we decided to go to the nearest one in KingFisher.

Teh and Chan Dental Surgery, Lot 3-0 , Lorong Plaza Kingfisher 1, Plaza Kingfisher, 088386322

We were the only patient in the clinic, therefore no waiting needed. I like this. Last visit to the dentist, we need to wait for almost 1 hour before our turn.

Dr Philip Teh is very friendly. He introduced himself as ‘abang’ to Danish. After Danish told what’s the problem, abang Dr. checked his painful tooth.The nurse gave Danish a sunglasses to wear.  Then he explain thoroughly to Danish on what will he be doing for the next 10 minutes.  He also let Danish hold the tip of the ‘grounder-machine’. Do some demo on how the hose works and sucks the water from the grounder. Dr told whenever Danish feel any pain and wanted the Dr to stop, just raise his hand. Danish seems calmer than before.  

No need to pull the tooth but Danish had nerve inflammation which causing the pain. Abang Dr. put some filling in the tooth to protect and I think to reduce the pain. He asked us to come back after one week to put a proper restoration to the tooth.

Oh ya, the Abang Dr also promised to give Danish a Hello Kitty sticker after everything done. Instead, Danish asked for Ben 10 sticker. Hahaha.

The visit to the dentist was fun. Danish was happy as he can be.

See you next week, Abang Dr! Thank you very much

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A Jar of Heart

Last week, Nurul participated in a singing competition called Bintang Kecil at her school. She loves singing. Like her father. For several weeks, she kept practising the song until Danish also knows few lines from the song. Yesterday, Misako got surprised when she brought home a winning trophy. Oh my, another singer in the family.

Nurul and friends

On October, there will be another competition ~ Best of the Best. So, will continue listening to this song until next Oct. Tahan2 saja lah telinga. Sampai Misako pun sudah mau hafal itu lagu. Not bad, enjoy this song. 

1 Ramadhan 1432

Today is the first day of fasting for us Muslims.  As usual it is quite a challenge especially for the little ones. Alhamdulillah, until now I can still survive. Thanks for the practice several weeks before this. Biasalah, ganti puasa bah.

Sahur is a must in my family. My hubby can get gastric if we skip sahur. Last night before bed,  I marinated my hubby’s favourite dish for 1st day fasting – lamb! Prepare the kangkung then off to bed. Woke up after the first ring of the alarm clock from my hp, rushed to the kitchen to prepare all the dishes. Ala kadar.

Coffee for me and milo for hubby and nurul. Then wake those sleepyhead up. No success on the attempt to wake up Danish. Three of us continue sahur until imsak, 4.40 am. Cleared up everything before continue ironing the uniforms. Just before the sun rise, Danish woke up and asked whether he still can eat. I said yes.  So there he is, sahur at 6.45 am ;)

9.30 am, it’s the second time Danish told me that he is hungry. Again, explained him the purpose of fasting for n th time. 

11.00 am, went to see Mr Supervisor. Several milestones have been set up. Takuut. One clear reminder for me.

“Starting from 1st August, change your mind set.. now,  you are a student! Start working on the papers. At the end of you study you should have 12 conference and journal papers. ”  His face and tone was so serious, that I can almost cry. I really need to digest the statement and  sleep over it. So,..

I am a student, once again!

 

ummi with lil Danial at Majlis Pertunangan Norhayati @ Kota Ayangan Keningau.

Ramadhan, kedatanganmu dinanti. Semoga segala ibadah di bulan mulia ini akan lebih baik kualiti dan kuantitinya berbanding bulan-bulan sebelum ini.  Selamat berpuasa rakan-rakanku.

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